Fear

In my previous post I mentioned that I was going to explain why I had gone AWOL for the last 5 months, and briefly said it was a 'mixture of my laziness and my mindset at the time'. I really hope that doesn't sound like an excuse.

I won't write too much, because I do have the tendency to write essays instead of blog posts, and I know for a fact that no one wants to read a chapter with one picture in their spare time, so I'll keep this as short as possible. (this seriously sounds so dramatic, so sorry )
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Fear
A feeling of anxiety concerning the outcome of something or avoid doing something because one is afraid. Relatable? This has been the word that I have been pondering over these last couple months. The new year was fast approaching, and as I was reflecting on things I had done this year, only to realised that there was nothing to reflect on because I had done nothing at all. And that cruel emotion called Fear played the culprit in all of this.

I'm going to be honest with you, in the past, I probably held the tittle of the ultimate wimp. I had so many opportunities flying my way but I dodged every single one of them because I was scared. What would people think of me? Was I even good enough? Who do I think I am? What if I don't do it right? When it came to blogging, I would be afraid to talk about certain things like fashion or beauty because I didn't feel like I was entitled to talk about it and felt like people would instantly judge me.

I've realised that fear of putting things out there and expressing yourself is just an inevitable fate-there's just no way of avoiding it because no matter what you do, you and fear will bump into each other sometimes.
My advice? Well, it won't be anything you haven't already heard. Stop thinking of what you think people will think cause quite frankly you don't know. Even if you did know, you should have control over your life, so why let someone else's thought take control?
As Shia Labeouf said 'Just Do It'. Go in  head first. If you fail? Try again, fail again, fail better. It's the beginning of a new year so don't let your fears get ahead of you. Alright?

This was more a therapeutic post for me, I wanted to have something I could come back to if I ever needed an extra push, but it's up to everyone's interpretation. We all have fear, so we all need to be reminded that we are much bigger than them.

That last bit got super cheesy for me, so I shall seee you in my next post,
- Leslie x